Chapter 4

Her name was Xiao He. The officials said she was a displaced person. The past was like a swirling muddled pool in her mind, always shifting but impossible to unravel clearly.

She knew she once had a home, a father, and two elder sisters. The jujube tree in their yard was tall, its small red fruits hanging heavily from the branches. Her mother would pick them for her to eat—so sweet she was reluctant to swallow.

But gradually, everything vanished.

She only remembered hunger creeping slowly from afar into the village. Her father grew thin, his eye sockets hollow, coughing incessantly in bed.

The last patch of withered seedlings in the field was seized by the great landlord and his men, who claimed they were “borrowing” it for military grain. Her mother argued with them but returned with disheveled hair, a face reddened by slaps, and several teeth missing.

Later, her father became too ill to get up.

Her mother said they had to send the eldest sister away to exchange for some money to buy grain.

The eldest sister left without a word, clutching a small bundle. Their mother watched at the door until the dust from the rickety donkey cart disappeared from sight.

Villagers whispered that the eldest sister had married a man dying of tuberculosis. She didn’t understand what that meant, nor why her sister never returned.

All she knew was that their home grew colder and emptier.

Her father did not survive that winter. Her mother cried through the night, then shut the door the next day, saying she would take her and the second sister to find relatives.

When she asked where they were going, her mother replied only, “Don’t ask.”

She didn’t know where the relatives lived, only that her mother held her hand tightly as they traveled from one village to another, then to places utterly unfamiliar. More and more people crowded together, moving toward the capital. Some muttered, “There’s grain in the capital,” while others wept along the way.

Eventually, even the cries faded.

Her mother led her and the second sister on. The second sister often spoke to others and sometimes brought back food, though more often she returned empty-handed. Their mother said the second sister was trading to keep them fed.

Perhaps the second sister cried too, but she had no memory of it.

Once, when the second sister returned with a hard, inedible cake, their mother stared at it for a long time before breaking it in half—giving one half to her and the other to the second sister. The second sister couldn’t bear to eat it and slipped half into her hand at midnight.

Their mother’s cough grew harsher, sounding much like their father’s final breaths. Yet when they reached the capital region, they couldn’t find their relatives—strangers said they might have moved away or had long since fled, bankrupt and desperate.

Her mother refused to believe it and dragged her through street after street. They walked until her legs felt foreign, blood seeping through the rag wrapped around her foot, each step stabbing with pain.

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